Yeah, I get what you are saying.
Life sucks, not only do you have to worry about your own feelings but you also have to worry about other people's too.
I suffer from depression i guess, I sleep all the time and I fear that people are losing faith in who I am. People are such jerks, they feel that it is necessary to give their opinions on things (I guess what i am doing now counts) and what effect it has on the person they say it to it doesn't matter as long as what they feel is out.

I understand how you feel about mediocrity, It is a s***ty thing to be. What's the point of living when people don't remember your existence. There is no reason why you have to be that way, is it some social barrier that allows everything to function who gives a f*** about being mediocre I'd rather have death by ants on my gravestone than nothing at all.

I respect you man.

Other people may not see the parts that make you different but what you just said is what makes you different. You live on the thought that you can be better, and you probly think about it every day, all you need is direction and you also need someone who isnt a jerk. Someone who would rather have your feelings dominate their own.
I am not saying that I am this person. f***, I don't even have a degree in some of this s*** and that is being honest but you don't need a degree to live and you can live, you can do whatever you want there is no higher power than yourself. It was some person who made the laws that people abide but you too can be someone of significance, you can make the new rules.. If you try hard enough.
Because all you have to be is a jerk :=l take s*** from no one and do what you feel, say what you want and especially dont give a s*** about what other people say, After all they are probly the most mediocre of us all.

Don't worry too much man, I'm sure everything will turn out ok and if you ever become someone famous, I am in cue for an autograph.
You can forget about me, I guess, I will not be someone of importance to you unless you believe I am.