I have been having this high hopes, cause I know I can get it, but then what happened today just made me to free fall and nosedive to utter frustration. There are really those people whom I dearly love yet disappointment me oh so dearly as well. My mind would just swell in stark disbelief, as I ride along this impossible comatose sea of mire of all your needy ego.

And because I love you -- you "major disappointment of a person--at least for now" oh so dearly (which is the truest of all truths, I say), I chose to hold back and indulge your "pestilence." I just hope that you'd notice. I just wish you would for once stop your pompous show and see through other's circumstance. You always think that you're the victim, and yet the truth is that people just regard things so that the better would incline your whims because you are a weak and needy person.

In this situation, things are favorable to you. I even made those favorable things for you. It's not fair to me, and yet here I am, consciously making things good for you. I am afraid of the day that we would face each other again, for my tongue might slip, and I end up saying cuffed thoughts on my mind that I dare not say. Because even though I hate you this time, I still love you. I still care for you. What I can I do about that? You're a dear to me, for heaven's sake!

I have given so much, and I just hope that you would see that. And if you are actually aware of that, please do something about it.

I am such an idiot for all of this borderline stupid nonsense gibberish blabber.