How will I find the means to express and communicate my thoughts and feelings when those words don't exist? Or better yet, how will I find the courage to let them out if they are ever found? And even if they are uncovered and become known to me, who am I to open the gates to my core and offer my inner self to be known to anyone. I am no one, I am nothing and I am nowhere. This life long struggle to discover myself and know who I am and why I am here seems to be a battle which was lost before it began and yet I continue to fight. How will I know when I am found and will I know if I have over looked the opportunity for self-discovery?

After twenty eight years of seasons changing and obligations growing but never getting me anywhere, I have come to the realization that this is it. The unknowns that I have been seeking to soothe my soul and define my existence are nothing more than what dreams are made of. I'm consumed by a chase for something beyond the scope of what this world is capable of providing. And yet I continue to dream.