Seriously I know its been a while. I haven't written anything in ages. I'm not in school so it looks as if I have nothing going on but thats farther from the truth than anything. Today the 9th my friend got married. I myself got pushed back from going to rtc till october 8th. I got hired in working at a s***ty eatery then got myself fired. Which ended up being good. I got a new job that pays much more which made it so I could get a phone. I also have started to push my body a little more. I feel as if I need to work harder to maintain my physical shape. Yes I sit around a bunch and play video games but that doesn't mean I don't like my body and am fat and have zits. Which I feel as if I have a great body, about no zits (1 or 2 once and a while rare though). I'm not fat at all. I weigh about 190 lbs and I'm 6''2'. I'll be 23 next week saturday, happy birthday to me. Only one person is really taking notice. I've noticed I'm starting to hate myself so I've indulged into more of a passage of time by games and working out. My current girlfriend seems to think i'm lazy. i'm not just damaged I think. I've made a lot of bad choices that affected some people and I regret it.I will always regret hurting people. But I think its time to focus a little harder on whats to come. Hopefully it wont be forever until the next blog. It will be a while though I'm sure.